Constantly I 

think to myself and

declare that it might be time

to resurrect 

the old habit

of blogging. 

This is an attempt at 

just that;

a stream of consciousness exercise 

aimed

squarely at the 

target of posting 

a blog but also 

done 

because I am fully aware that my brain has way too much fighting for my attention right now and it hurts....

Everyone knows about school

stuff and people 

understand

the money stuff

and people just generally know 

but I am anxious

and

I don't think

people would get it 

even if I tried to explain. 

The thing is that

I have no reason to be overly concerned

because none of 

these issues are new or

anything I didn't know was

coming  but

I am noticing old trends,

bad habits,

negative indicators of my internal 

and spiritual life

even though

things have seemingly gone

splendidly this semester. 

There is so much less stress. 

But I still feel crappy most days. 

Headaches grow from stiff necks and

backs like flaming fingers of 

ice.

Should I be worried? Should I shut-up–God I hate that word– (to much baggage)

I'm tired. I don't know world. But I hope you sleep well and tomorrow is a day where I think I know. 

PCE