You Belong

you belong here
now
you are designed to thrive
but this world is corrupted
you've believed things about yourself that aren't true
---you are corrupted ---
but this isn't the end
God is at work
things WILL change
the lies that eat our souls will be exposed
the light of Christ's love will hit them and they'll dry up and fall off like old fruit
and the truth
beautiful
fresh
and vibrant
will grow in their place
we will realize our place in existence and thrive in the roles God designed us to fill
love God
love each other
Heaven on Earth is coming

For Christmas I Need Hope

I've run out of hope. I see no real future right now. The Church which is supposed to reflect Christ's love seems permanently marred by greed, selfishness, lust for flesh, lust for power, hypocrisy or any other number of abhorrent traits.

Let me paraphrase a thought an English teacher once expressed:

"Artists and dreamers don't see the world as it is but rather as it could be attempting to translate it musically, visually, poetically or in any medium to the world. The tragedy is when the dreams slowly fade and the dreamer is left in this hateful, dreadful reality. Who can survive that?"

I have no dream left. Maybe I'm just a wuss but what is there left to chase?

Peace? Clearly isn't happening in my lifetime.

Charity? I've been doing all I can for 4 years for what impact? Amongst so much greed and violence it all feels lost.

Love? Five years ago I was in a relationship that might have gone somewhere. There's been nothing substantial since.

Family? Without that love I can never be in a functioning family.

Church? Christians?

Every town
Has its ups and downs
Sometimes the ups
Out number the downs
Not in Nottingham

Where is Robin Hood? Where is Jesus? Where is the love?